Wednesday, September 20, 2006
didnt blog for quite long
was busy. and moody.
life is so screwed up. so sucks. i hate it.
evrything is going against me. shiiter. rahs.
tues. nth actually. had sch per normal.
later went zhiyan house
cos mickey yang jianyong zhiyan guanling all go do geog project.
jingliang and me jus tag along for fun.
envy her house. so spacious. and big windows. hahas.
then ZHIYAN is so so go0d at guitar. wow. impressed. im jealous.
lols. then at msn.
haish FCUK lahs. why you all do dis to me.
rahs make me so moody. no hope liao lahs
and i think shes avoiding me. hais. mayb i should accept the fact alrdy.
fucks. want help me tell her also dont nid in dis way rite. AHHH. i want TO SCREAM!
hais., that alrdy spoil my day. then had tuition from 8pm to 10pm
rahs. im so pissed
engkiat ask me do GEOG project and bring today! fcuk. i haven even do. and he expect ppl to do at 10pm. and he dont even help? pls. okay u are busy. evrybody is busy too. you think oni you isit. got so many test. you nid study. you want get go0d grades. you think i dont want isit? and you think im that fcuking genius that dont nid study ar? get a lfye lahs. wake up. help me. thats what call grp project. not leaving evry damn powerpt to argu and me to do. and they three. gareth engkiat and jingkai jus do a letter? pls ONE ppl also can settle the letter alrdy.
okay. i dont blame you if really you want me and argu do. but pls. you think. you want me hand up today. when 10pm i haven even do. if you really mean it. gareth and you will be busy helping me on doing also rite. not jus ordering me. and see me do. and ask me bring tmr. and get MARKS by jus doing bloody letter. fcuk. so easy i ask argu do letter i do powerpt then we two get marks dont care abt ue all. i also dont mind., and dont care. you all in our grp not our grp also no diff. is mostly argu and me doing. get out of my sight. i regretted joining grp with you all.
FUCK. i hate GRP work DARN alot can! im also left out. also the one BEING pangsehed. the 8 immortal always together. ais jamie they all. janice they all. afiqa clement they all. adrian fangyuan they all. hormearn and junming they all. then ME and argu? always left WE two out. i dont feel myself in 3 int. i dont belong here. hais. nobody treat me as part of 3 int. ya whatever. i hate grp work ! i rather individual. hais. then sometimes i want with mickey. or yang. but they also in a difficult spot. EVRYBODY SUCKS..
hais.
then today hair check in sch. then i nvrr kanna caught. then ppl say what counsillor not fair. all those. hais. i hate all dis. ppl say me also. not a go0d day for me. lawrence koh said me today. hais. then the chinses tcher in charge of the twinning programme scolded me for not handing up the form
shitter lahs. I ALSO NVRR SAY IM GOING. i jus told ms lim. give me one more day grace. i ask my parents again. then today tell her answer. i nvrr ever say im confirm goin. shit. then kanna scolded for nth. then today wanted to find mslim after sch. meeting! cannot find. later tmr i find. ms lim surely scold me. cos i so late then find her. then say not going. rahs. im prepared to be scolded tmr again. i think. tmr its gonna be not a go0d day again.
then later after sch. went to eat with mh huixian and argu longjohn. then later went to library with mh to study. then mickey came in. cause he saw my bag.
then later went off with mh argu and wayne. mh go home. argu wayne me go punggol plaza pei argu cut hair. argu hair like very little liaos. like mine. lols. nvm. is nicer now. i think. then when cutting. wenjun zuoying came. wayne told me they walk from kovan to punggol. maddness. hais lovely couples. i think i will nvrr had the chance. went home later.
NOW im stuck with tmr amaths test and dis fcuking GEOG. nobody is helping me again.
hais i think now mickey,argu and yang are the closest to me in 3 int alrdy
THE WHOLE WORD IS TURNING AGAINST ME!
silent.loneliness@5:09 AM
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