Tuesday, March 04, 2008
u think u very great isit.
think about it la basket. i respect u as my father. did u evr respect me as ur son?
what for no reason just come inside the rm and shout at me to go in my cpf acc?
i mean for what . u suddenly come in ask me check. even if so, can u like speak to me in a nicer tone? than just barging in and scold the fuck outta me? fuck u back man. i had enough of u la pls.
say what i evryday go out play don care. i know why u shout at me. cause i keep playing even the SP enrollment package come alrdy. NOT I DON'T CARE ABOUT MY ENROLLMENT CAN?
IS I FUCKING CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT NOW!.
i only can enroll from 8th-10th march. WTF U want me to do now? of course nth to do i play la?
thn MEDICAL CHECK UP. what? NOW 11.30pm also cannot go what fucking medical check up.
and the medical check up is from 5th-15th march. which starts tmr. WHAT CAN I FUCKING DO NOW AGAIN U TELL ME? like tht u see me dont care dont care keep play THN U ANGRY COME SCOLD ME ISIT? PLS. is not i dont care. IS I DO A FUCK NOW. evrything all tmr thn can do. CAN't u just let me wait till tmr? ok i totally no mood now. sometimes u just wanna make me say i hate you sia..
bt also. sighhhh. you always make me feeel sad and regretful after evry quarral we had. is like. afterall u are my father. i shouldn't have shouted back at you. argue back even if u are unreasonable. bt i just couldn't just control my temper. and sad is tht. i always wanted to treat u well. respect u as my father. try not to make u worry for me too much. make u less angry. bt u always tend to make urself angry and just scold me unreasonably tht made me just wanna flare up tgt with you. ): i'm angry, confused and also hurt. why can't you just understand how i feeel right now. i cry badly alone in my room after evry quarral we had. YES i really mean it. cry out loud. ppl may thing crying is gay. no i totally disagree. i cry for every damn thing i'm sad about cause i believe it will make me feel alot better. so yea. DAD. u just made me cry. i'm sorry if i was really harsh on u just now. bt i just can't bring myself to say sorry whn i see u now bt give u a black face. which i totally don't wanna do tht. i can't control my emotion now. if i apologise to u now. u will nvr understand how i feel. if i continue to give u a black face. we will nvr stop the quarral. what should i do now? ):
please god. let all these stop now i beg you.
now i'm totally no mood for tmr's movie.
silent.loneliness@7:30 AM
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